summer

i wanna.

jammed

i think it’s amazing how much a person can impact our lives and not even be aware of it. i think it must be the best feeling in the world to know that you’ve been such an inspiration to someone, that you made a difference. or how the most insignificant of moments are stored in the deepest compartments and chest of memories, probably forever. like this time i was in preschool and we were having our teabreak. the teacher was circulating each table with a tray of jam sandwiches. i remember the sandwiches looking really good what with the jam oozing from the sides and i helped myself to a piece. it tasted pretty mediocre. bread wasn’t as soft as i imagined it to be, jam not the right amount of sweet. when the teacher came the second time round and offered me another piece; i took it. till today i dunno why i did because i had the hardest time trying to finish that second piece.

it’s silly, really but perhaps a lesson in disguise? like how i shouldn’t judge something just by its looks. or that greed is bad. but i know these things. maybe i was afraid of upsetting her. helping others at the expense of yourself is noble and all that jazz. but sometimes when i look back i ask myself if it was worth it. some honestly aren’t the most grateful bunch in the world and i’m often left to squint really hard to see the bright side of it all, the silver lining. and probably draw one if it didn’t exist. or maybe this is telling me to stop dwelling on the past. i can’t help but wish i could relive those carefree and conflict-free moments when my inbox used to be filled to the brim with texts from the closest of friends, and there were phone calls at the strangest of times for the longest time. i miss the familiar. this is familiar but it’s a new kind of familiar. ties weren’t loose, neither was there distance in the least. football games were often looked forward to and supporters of the losing team would not be left unreminded the next day. here it’s afl this, cricket that. i don’t see the appeal in them at all, i’m sorry. and i don’t care if unreminded isn’t a word. in fact, perhaps what we need is a lil less care and a lil more silver.

inevitable truth is that things change, people change. isn’t that such a horrible word. inevitable. i first heard the word when agent smith said it to neo. i was once told that besties are forever but really, i don’t think anything is anymore. cause that’s just too big a word.

and i guess maybe what this is trying to say is that i look into things way too much. i mean, it was just a jam sandwich for gosh sakes.

oh em gee

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A British 19-year-old has officially changed his name to “Captain Fantastic Faster Than Superman Spiderman Batman Wolverine Hulk And The Flash Combined.”

The Glastonbury, England, teenager — originally named George Garratt — said his new name, which is thought to be the world’s longest, has so outraged his grandmother that she is no longer speaking to him, The Telegraph reported Monday.

The teen said he used an online service to officially change his name for a $20 fee.

“I wanted to be unique,” Captain Fantastic said of his name choice. “I decided upon a theme of superheroes.”

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and i thought my name was cool :(

splash

michael phelps as dr mcswimmy on grey’s anatomy :D

it’s a jimmy kimmel thing heheh he’s awesome.

“what seems to be the problem?”
“nothing now *winkwink*”

breathe

i’m finally finally free from assignments, exams, essays and plant growing this term. as i’m nearing the holidays i find myself unable to believe that i’m gonna be going into term 4 soon. did i really go through 3 terms already? time flies but then again, it doesn’t. not really. i feel like i’m in this state of…indifference? my head is swirling with so many thoughts but i can’t pinpoint what exactly. maybe i need all that assignments and work keeping me busy to stop me from thinking so much.

i often get asked if i’m going back to malaysia anytime soon. i want to. but then again, not really. as much as i miss everything back there, i’m going to miss it even more knowing that it’s changed. it would be ridiculous to think that it’s exactly where i left off. people change, characters differ, places that used to feel like second home will leave me with a sense of unfamiliarity. or maybe the return would be welcoming, like it’s been waiting for me all this time with arms wide open, as corny as that sounds. but then i would be leaving it all over again.

a couple of days ago a bunch of us were huddled around a table in the library right after our math paper. conversations swayed from ncis, grey’s anatomy, bi-s in school (shocking revelations!!!!!), random questions like “what if someone fails in a survival course?”, macbeth (because english was the very next day). the whole time my fingers were clapsed around my trusty bright green shaker that’s since replaced the not so trusty black one i dropped at the mangrove swamp over in straddie during bio camp. i was doing that twisty pencil thing with my fingers. i remember annie suddenly grabbing my pencil and trying to twist it with her fingers too and failing pretty hilariously. her eyes shot wide open when she noticed the springy bit in my pencil weighing it from left to right.

“what’s this?!”
“ah that would be a…shaker?”

i remember immediately thinking are you kidding me, they don’t have shakers here? i don’t really go stationary shopping here. upon explaining and demonstrating the genius-ness behind the shaker she exclaimed that she officially loves malaysian stuff. sigh i felt so proud of malaysia at that moment. yes that’s the whole point of this flashback :) but seriously man, they don’t have shakers… i probably own the most advanced pencil in the school…or possibly the country o.o i deserve a prize. like maybe another shaker.

please don’t spoil this by saying that shakers are from japan.

look down yonder

first day of school was sucha drag. it’s the back-to-school blues, definitely. my day and week has just been an array of randomness.

physics this term’s another assignment around the topic of “stimulating the senses” which excited a lot of the guys in class but that was quickly pressed down when we were told that by senses, it meant light or sound. in a physics context, why of course. this proceeded to slideshows of optical illusions and a preview of the world’s most annoying sounds, literally. google it there are such websites i have no idea why but yeah T.T

optus was down all day so i couldn’t make any calls agh apparently it’s cause of some guy but i didn’t read the news.

i received my new timetable today and didn’t realise anything different till a friend mentioned that we have a different english teacher o.o usually they give out a million timetables supposedly changed but they’re always exactly the same so i didn’t really look twice when i got my new one. nobody knew who this new teacher was and outside our english class while waiting we were going do you think she’s nice? i hope she’s young. why’s that? because young teachers are like so much nicer and less judgmental. not true! it sorta is.

turns out she’s new and today was her first day haha. no wonder nobody knew who she was. but she’s nice… apparently i have a pretty name so all’s good :D oh and no, she wasn’t young :P

i dunno why or how but somehow the topic of bank accounts sprung into a conversation i had during english and i remember recalling said conversation when i made a surprise visit to the bank after school. hmm…

to kill a mocking bird is actually a really good book. i know i ranted about it a lot in the past but it’s worth a read :) and watch the movie too, even if it’s in b&w. speaking of movies, jumper was such a disappointment x.x sorry but i think hayden christensen wrecks movies, or maybe i just don’t like him… >(

if you enjoy youtube as much as i do, try search kevjumba and watch his vids :) he’s an american chinese (i think). i’ve watched em all and he’s darn funny! he recently challenged jessica alba to a stare contest and she actually responded! that vid’s up on youtube as well. also, search happyslip and check out her vids. she’s an aspiring actress and her reenactments of her mom, dad, grandmother and aunty are really funny stuff. all the different characters in her vids are played by her. and notice how their outfits are always the same :P go for a good laugh especially when you’re stressed out :D